This week has been long. This might not be a super pleasant post, either. Hey, I warned you.
I have been jobless since the middle of August. So, roughly 6 weeks now. Sure, in the beginning, it was fun. WOO NO WORK! Now? I'm basically dying for a job. My money has run out, my bills are overdue, and I just can't seem to find work. [Looks like I should be kicking myself in the ass for saying no to the job offering at the Walpole Hess gas station, huh? But these things happen. Whatever. I just couldn't bring myself to accept a job somewhere where I knew I would hate my life and job within a week or two.]
Mike has been great about this problem of mine. He subtly encourages my job search, and has been incredibly understanding on my lack of money problem as well. But I personally have reached the point where now I feel like it's too much. He has been paying for most things, and I feel bad about it.
I just wish I could think of something to do for him to show him how much I appreciate what he's done for me lately. I thank him, but I just don't feel that is enough.
...I miss my biff's. Jill and I talked yesterday, had a good cry together. Discussed how neither one of us sees Dana anymore, which bums us out. So much for the TNT Gang.. And the sad part is, we know why. Aadam, her boyfriend, has become more important than anything else. She doesn't even know what's going on in my life, and I don't know what's going on in hers anymore. It's rough, considering last summer we were inseparable, never spending more than a day or two apart. Then we lived together at college. And then after I dropped out after first semester, she finished out the year, and transferred to Worcester State so she could live at home, because we were too far apart. That's how close we were. Now.. nothing. Mike and I have been seeing each other since July, and we have been "official" since the end of August. Did Dana know about any of this until recently? No. Did I know she was going to the doctor's to see if she had tonsillitis? No. Do I even know anything of importance about her anymore? I don't think so. And that is SO HARD for me to handle. Jill, yes I miss her often. And we don't see each other as often as we would like. But we at least talk all the time still. Tony is in Iraq, dealing with bombs and being shot at on a daily basis, and he is there for me more than Dana is. I talk to him quite frequently, actually. Which is great, cause I miss him a lot. It's hard not having him around.
Alright, enough sad stuff!
Patch keeps growing. His neck is getting bigger than his head, and if it keeps up that way, he will have to have a harness instead of a collar. Which would be better anyways for him. We played in a field yesterday while Mike and Kevin skated in Mansfield. He is such a clumsy pup. He is going on 16 weeks old, and is just a bumbling clown in everything he does. He makes quick friends with anyone that walks by, until he chews their hand. I can't wait for him to be done teething!
I'm glad it's the weekend though. Saturday night Jill is coming down to hang out, I'm excited. And Sunday Mike and I are going to his niece's christening.
Which reminds me, I still am not sure what to wear! I have a nice looking black dress, but I'm not sure of the "rule" about wearing black to a christening. I also have a purple/burgandy dress which I suppose could be an option, but I feel it's better suited for a wedding or something. Eek I need to figure this out soon!
With that, I bid you farewell. Enjoy your weekend.
I have been jobless since the middle of August. So, roughly 6 weeks now. Sure, in the beginning, it was fun. WOO NO WORK! Now? I'm basically dying for a job. My money has run out, my bills are overdue, and I just can't seem to find work. [Looks like I should be kicking myself in the ass for saying no to the job offering at the Walpole Hess gas station, huh? But these things happen. Whatever. I just couldn't bring myself to accept a job somewhere where I knew I would hate my life and job within a week or two.]
Mike has been great about this problem of mine. He subtly encourages my job search, and has been incredibly understanding on my lack of money problem as well. But I personally have reached the point where now I feel like it's too much. He has been paying for most things, and I feel bad about it.
I just wish I could think of something to do for him to show him how much I appreciate what he's done for me lately. I thank him, but I just don't feel that is enough.
...I miss my biff's. Jill and I talked yesterday, had a good cry together. Discussed how neither one of us sees Dana anymore, which bums us out. So much for the TNT Gang.. And the sad part is, we know why. Aadam, her boyfriend, has become more important than anything else. She doesn't even know what's going on in my life, and I don't know what's going on in hers anymore. It's rough, considering last summer we were inseparable, never spending more than a day or two apart. Then we lived together at college. And then after I dropped out after first semester, she finished out the year, and transferred to Worcester State so she could live at home, because we were too far apart. That's how close we were. Now.. nothing. Mike and I have been seeing each other since July, and we have been "official" since the end of August. Did Dana know about any of this until recently? No. Did I know she was going to the doctor's to see if she had tonsillitis? No. Do I even know anything of importance about her anymore? I don't think so. And that is SO HARD for me to handle. Jill, yes I miss her often. And we don't see each other as often as we would like. But we at least talk all the time still. Tony is in Iraq, dealing with bombs and being shot at on a daily basis, and he is there for me more than Dana is. I talk to him quite frequently, actually. Which is great, cause I miss him a lot. It's hard not having him around.
Alright, enough sad stuff!
Patch keeps growing. His neck is getting bigger than his head, and if it keeps up that way, he will have to have a harness instead of a collar. Which would be better anyways for him. We played in a field yesterday while Mike and Kevin skated in Mansfield. He is such a clumsy pup. He is going on 16 weeks old, and is just a bumbling clown in everything he does. He makes quick friends with anyone that walks by, until he chews their hand. I can't wait for him to be done teething!
I'm glad it's the weekend though. Saturday night Jill is coming down to hang out, I'm excited. And Sunday Mike and I are going to his niece's christening.
Which reminds me, I still am not sure what to wear! I have a nice looking black dress, but I'm not sure of the "rule" about wearing black to a christening. I also have a purple/burgandy dress which I suppose could be an option, but I feel it's better suited for a wedding or something. Eek I need to figure this out soon!
With that, I bid you farewell. Enjoy your weekend.
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